Attraction is Inevitable, A poem
It’s something about a hood (real) nigga, talking about God
That makes me want to dive deeper within his chest
Especially when he’s talking out of it
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There’s all different types of niggas
And I find beauty in them all
It’s just something about their energy that vibrates out and tickles whoever is within their gravity
Some find it scary, I find it intriguing
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I find it tasty
like I can feel them on my tongue as they talk and as I gaze at their chest to their face
See I don’t care about their shoes, but it'll give them a plus
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And my observations happen unconsciously, but I take it all in
I can feel a nigga in my hands as soon as their around me
And this attraction in life is inevitable
It’s all about what we do with it
What actions we take based on the realness that we don’t acknowledge
And I wonder if monogamy really exists
Or if it should
Because everything is beautiful and we should see it that way
Like I can’t help if my attraction is fueled by another’s belongings
We should only belong to ourselves anyway
But would I even be okay to not belong to anybody
Only belong to myself like I don’t want to give myself away
And have another person hold me as I belong to them
Searching in this life for another daddy
Or another parent
Because we come into this world belonging to other people
How do we break out of that?
I’m on a life long hunt to find fulfillment
Fulfillment within myself
I wonder though
If that’s enough for true happiness
Because I love me
I adore me
I’m a fucking Gawd, Goat, A dope ass bitch
And I’m fine as fuck
But I’m on a life long hunt to find a real ass nigga
To find love
And someone to make me happy
And I don’t think that’s a problem
Like yeah we need to love ourself and be okay with ourself
But I want what I want
And as long as I can be real about it
That’s what means the most to me
Honesty
Openness and Loyalty
I’m loyal to myself, honest to myself, open to myself
But I’m curious if I can even trust another soul
Because the same man that will talk about God
Would turn around any defy him
Find an attraction to me and act on it
All while he belongs to someone else
& if the attraction is inevitable for me then it must be and is for him
So I couldn’t even stop my man if he finds himself locked into another attraction
But I must admit, my attraction is different
It ain’t another me out there
I know the energy I possess
Like I don’t have to do much to get a man to desire me
But I try my best not
& I can’t help if it happens
God forbid it’s mutual
But really that’s what I really want